lavender oil

when i got headache
you tenderly advised me
that lavender oil is good

to put it onto the place 'between eyebrows and ears'
(we both dont know how to call it in english
so you just told me so)
and to put a bit in tea and drink it.

you asked me 'do you have lavender?'
oh yes of course i have,
it's one of the basic oils must have at home  : )

i tried it of course
to put it onto my skin
and to my head and massage it

and then put it into my tea cup

but when i hold it to my mouth
(naturally you close your eyes)
i could only feel like
you were smelling it here

i became you
and the bitter taste of the oil
still remains in my mouth

then the lavender's scent means
you to me

it will never be smelled
before reminding of you



and now my headache is almost gone
thank you for your tenderness
i always feel you are caring me


on the rainy new moon...

filled with pink

i seldom wear pink dress
even though i really want to 
because i can’t find the right color i want
it’s so hard to find and get
like this fragile color of the sky

a friend of mine said 
the reason i want to wear pink is
it’s me,
it's all about me inside 
filled with pinkerest color
and people feel unconsciously like
making outside looks the same as inside
it's funny
 
if i find this, the same color on a shelf,
i would definitely get one for me...

how i can manage

when you're away
you make me crazy
you dont just leave me alone staying calm

when i could talk with you
you grab my heart and dont leave me still
i even feel so hard to breathe
that i wonder how i can deal with my emotion
and my heart so fast beating loud


oh, you should see my posts as often as you can.
you should know how much it can change everything to me

like i’m moved seeing the sky
and then you’re moved with my words
i would be moved at the same time

you radiate something so strong to me
that i cant describe or manage it alright

spring of creativity

the creation is my words
the words i create is myself
it comes from my truth
it's all what i felt real or 
what i experienced actually

 
it's timeless work of concentration
like a deep meditation
i only feel the depth of the source
time flies away in my single glance
or it stays still in one single second

 
word comes from the deepest part
like pouring out from a spring
which never knows the limit

 
it's a spring of love
you always make it full
always full with eternity of love
so it never gets dry

new year

evening in my land



through the darkness i see
 
the light from where i believe
and the reflection of my world

 
with a certain feeling of peace
without any tiny wind causes ripple
and truth in my heart i hold

 
it's a certain feeling of what i’ll make
affirmation for the year in bold



 
































黄昏のみなも

 
わたしの世界を映すかがみ
私のなかにあるひかり

 
静かで揺らぎのない
さざなみひとつたたぬ水面
わたしの真実

 
新しい年への確かな予感

 

source of my creativity

you may think
how i'm not always patient
that i'm writing to you so many times
that i'm so talkative all the time

yes, i can talk endlessly with you
because you give me such a peaceful mood
like i'm free, relaxed at hom
while we can stay together in silence for long


 
it's you that i see first when i wake up
i want to feel you all the time
i want to see always and actually find beautiful things
then i want to share them to you

yes, i am always like this
but you see
there's my creativity within it

because you give me so many inspirations
and you make me strong


 
i always find beautiful things 
then make something 
more beautiful out of it

you are the source of my creativity

to the end of 2017

いちねんのおわり

 
わたしにとって今年はどんな年だったのでしょう

 
自然のいとなみによりそうくらし
季節のうつりかわりのなかで養われる感覚
天体の動きに導かれた歩み
 
暗闇のなかに光をみつけること

自分の内なる声にしたがうこと

本来のわたしに戻っていくこと


そのようにみちびかれた一年でした


ことし...立春から

春分
夏至
秋分
冬至


その大きな季節のめぐり
太陽と月のうごき
めぐりくる新月と満月
星々のうごき

その流れのなかで生きてきたのだと




そして今日は大晦日
 

目をつぶれば

そこには満天のほし
 
おおきな宇宙のなかのわたし
 
わたしのうちのはてしない宇宙

なんて美しい自然の摂理のなかを
私たちは生きているのでしょう
活かされているのでしょう

 

そう想うと
胸がいっぱいになります
 

わたしにもたらされたもの

全てがご縁でありギフトであったと

 

みなさまにとって2018年も
うつくしいとしとなりますように

looking back this year,
a few hours left (for me).

it was for me (and for you):

a life along the nature's being

sensing changes of the seasons

a path which was led by the stars

finding a light in the darkness

following own inner voices

going back to my-'original'-self

along the year:

from the beginning of 'spring'
there were

spring equinox

summer solstice

autumnal equinox

winter solstice

i was there in the season's cycle

and now on new year's eve

when i close my eyes

i see the sky full of stars

me in the universe

and cosmos in myself

sun and moon

new moon to full moon

stars and planets

and our earth

 
how beautiful is the world
we all live in

and we are made to live in

when i think of this

there's only one thing i feel

how much grateful that i am here

meeting all of my beloved ones



 

thank you so much for being here

helping and encouraging me all the time

i wish you all the newly coming year
to be wonderful and full of bliss

31 dec, 2017