you wrote me before
that you are rather listener...
you’re right,
you always patiently listen to my story,
till the end
always, letting me talk first.
i’m really happy
to have a great person like you
for i’m the one who always
want to share many things...to you
yet although i want to hear you too
so you should talk about you sometimes...
and i’m really happy now.
you hear me and i feel i’m accepted as i am
i’m in the calm peaceful feeling
and want to talk to you more...
maybe this kind of thing i’m going to share
is what i want to share you most,
more than what i experienced or saw
or the things i felt inside myself
because i can feel it with you
so read this slowly,
try to feel the mood i had,
like when i share my photos,
this time only with words...
but try to feel as you are here with me...
* * *
in morning mood,
i often awake around so early
when the sun about to rise,
still staying in my bed,
feeling it,
trying to hold it
or staying in the air
as long as i can...
it’s the time
getting lighter outside,
birds are singing so early
and loudly.
i can see the big tree
next to and over my house.
the air is still cool and moist..
it’s early morning and
you’ve never been here in morning,
but i feel like you are here,
near the tree,
floating in the air
embraced in the deep green leaves.
maybe the air smells and feels
like what we had and felt
in the park the evening we met for the last time.
or the place we visited on the first day we met.
you can feel it
we can still feel it together
i try to feel, sense,
realize and recognize it...
i want to hold,
don’t want to loose but stay still...
and i fall asleep again
until the time i really have to get up.
it’s the time i keep with tender
not to awake so clearly but
to stay in the state of dreaming and
in my sense
*
good morning my dear
have a beautiful day
